“SUICIDE”, Just to look at the word scares me! It’s amazing and sad to me how many people have actually thought about it, actually entertained ways of doing it, myself included. It seems that with the way our lives are going as the human race, with the violence we see on t.v., the stresses at our jobs or maybe the stress of a lack of a job, our financial situations, our relationships, suicide seems pretty inviting. What causes these thoughts to run ramped in our minds? We get ourselves so caught up into the things of this world that we can’t see or refuse to see Jesus. Sometimes the things of this world seem so overbearing and it seems there can’t be a way out, but we forget about the other hard times we have gone through before and how bad it sucked at that time,but somehow we made it through to the next day, the next week, the next month, the next year! What if we looked at these things with a different mind set? What if we look at them in a way that allows us to see the bigger picture? What if we push the pause button in our racing minds for a minute and allow God to speak to us during these times? What would God say to me if I just listened?
These things in which I just spoke of are the tools of the enemy! He really don’t care what you think, what you do, what you say! He wants us to consume ourselves with the things of this world, He wants us to consume ourselves with our families, He wants us to consume ourselves with our churches, He wants us to consume ourselves with our religions! He encourages us to consume ourselves with everything that life has to offer, good or bad, except one thing!! “JESUS!!” He doesn’t want you to have a relationship with Jesus, He doesn’t want you praying, He doesn’t want you getting obese in the word, He doesn’t want you to take off your blindfold!!
So, is suicide really the end of our suffering, or just the beginning ?
I love you Jesus, and I don’t know how to fix things in my life. I struggle daily with my flesh and look for ways to control my situation. “YOU” have given me the way to be free, “YOU” have shown me a better way, “YOU” have given me life, “YOU”, Jesus, are all I need. Help me see your face during my struggles and use these struggles to glorify your name. Amen