What really do I want!?

I have been reading Jim Palmer’s book “DIVINE NOBODIES.”  I am almost finished with the book, what a great book!!  I am reading a part in the book that talks about children being forced into sex slavery!!  As I read, I got mad and sick to my stomach.  I felt like crying.  Jim asks the question I have asked many times, “Why, God?”  and then I’ll think,  ”Maybe this is a problem that I’ll just pray about and leave to God?”  Then Jim writes:

     I don’t really want a “relationship” with God.  Here’s what I want.  I want to share with God all I feel, all I need, all that grieves me, all that makes me happy, the puzzling things, the fun things, and the hard things, but I would prefer that God keep his stuff to himself.  I don’t want to hear about his pain and share in his grief.  I don’t mind listening to God as long as I’m receiving solutions, answers, and advice.  Maybe what I really want is a divine vending machine: pop in my prayer, press the button for my need, and I’m good to go.

Thanks Jim for being obedient and writing this book. I guess it takes two for a “RELATIONSHIP”  to be….

Thank you Father, for using different things in my life to draw me near to you.  I love you.

“JESUS COME SOON”