Competition with God
March 2, 2008 by imabarbarian
I feel today I have learned an old lesson anew. I was on top of the world, I have been meeting with couples outside of church and I have dove into their lives. I have seen God do some cool stuff!
I went to visit my cousin today that’s dying. His stench made me feel nauseous! I was panicky!! His flesh is rotting off his bones, the smell is unbelievable. I asked God to help me to get through this. I thought to myself, I hope I never end up like him, where someone is sickened by me. All I could think of was “MYSELF!!!”
Then I get home and get a call from Dan that a couple I thought was on the road to recovery toward their marriage, blew up like an atomic bomb!! I got sick to my stomach!!! You know, why even try??!!! God has got his plan and if I don’t match it, it just blows up!!!! “THAT’S BULLSHIT GOD!!!!!!” My intentions are good, I am not trying to out do you!!!! I want people to come to you too!!!
ROM: 5:1-5
This is what god spoke to me; “WE STILL FACE DAILY PROBLEMS THAT OFTEN HELP US GROW.”
These things that happened today are for me. For my growth and yet I got pissed at God. Just as I start to get comfortable with my relationship with him, He stirs the pot of Brian soup and lets it simmer a little more.
to sum it all up:
“I AM COMPETITIVE WITH GOD!”
